Jade Emperor's Birthday 天公诞

The most important day for Hokkien三, since this year we can't celebrate or do the prayer at night, therefore we just had dinner with the Lee's family together. All these while we never had dinner together on this so called Jade Emperor's birthday. This is the first, that's why somehow the dinner makes me feel like it was meant to replace loneliness of your absence.

Rushed to the restaurant myself after work, drove home alone as well after dined. On the way back, I teared....again. I don't know how many times had I teared when I remind of him.

Out of the house, full of noises where neighbors doing preparations for the prayer; firecrackers & fireworks are everywhere, we used to be part of it. Inside the house, now we can just stay in the lonely house watching and listening the noises without participating, the merrier the environment the lonelier in our hearts.

Kinda active recently to blog, maybe because I'm fear of festivals, especially the CHINESE festivals after he's gone. And blog is the only way to release my fear, my worry, my sorrow and not affecting others. Guess I'm affected with hardly let go disease..... Such an useless idiot, I need full recovery!

The song "When you're gone" from Avril Lavigne popped up my mind, sad rhythm. Even Avril has her new song released, "What the hell". Why should I still stay with the sad old rhythm? Shall change to the new mood as per the new song, take it easy, be tough! I can, I can do it.

Tin gong bo bi~